Why Magic School?
Do you remember the book and movie, Matilda? That was me as a child, but unlike the book/movie, I was trained out of my magic at a young age because it would freak people out and moreover, my family had its own challenges and had no idea how to foster a magical child.
What did my magic look like? Well, at a very young age, maybe 4 or 5, I could feel energy. If something or someone around me didn’t feel safe, I felt it in my stomach - a debilitating stomach ache actually to where my parents thought I may have an ulcer. What was really happening is that I was very clairsentient and claircognizant - I could literally feel in my tiny body when someone or something felt “off” around me.
Imagine having this ability and growing up in a physically and emotionally unsafe environment…my little body was never ok, always on guard, hypervigilant, and never knew when the next shoe was going to drop - but that it always did.
I would be able to feel if an adult had a tight chest, or discomfort and I would ask them about it…this didn’t go over well for many reasons but imagine a small child being able to sense what you felt on the inside.
So, I learned to hide it, to wear the following 30-35 years I was able to suppress it and rarely feel or find it. This allowed me to be “normal”, to go with the mainstream, be on the dance team and be friends with the popular crowd, go to college, fall in love, and graduate and get a job in Corporate America.
Huzzah, I did it!
Oh wait…the shoe was waiting to drop, but this time in a different way. My body was (not so patiently) waiting for my mind to catch up for what the rest of me already knew…
As my abilities came back online, so did the body aches and the stored energy of both suppressing but also never expressing how I truly felt or my authentic self.
I had become quite amazing at suppressing until my body began to remember that I could read energy. I had new symptoms this time - incessant migraines, back pain that didn’t allow me to stand or walk for more than a minute or so, stomach aches on fleek, and a general sense of dread.
I saw doctors, ate Excedrin migraine like candy, and spent most of my time outside of work in bed because I couldn’t really walk. Was I living? Seriously? Not at all BUT I was climbing ranks and making scratch! I also managed to get engaged during this time.
I just kept putting on band aids - getting shots in my back so that I could have some relief, finding a chiropractor that actually allowed me to walk down the aisle (getting myofascial release), and surviving on caffeine to keep me “up” and engaged during the day then drinking wine at night to numb me to sleep.
What was happening? Was I reaching a mid life crisis? It felt like my world was closing in on me, until I began to consider that my life could look different.
It was hard as hell. I had always believed that the big job and big money and big titles meant that I would be good in life, that I made it and that it was just the way it was.
I never blame anyone for feeling safe in this, as I did for so long. I was special though, I knew that, and I had no idea what to do with that (then).
Around 35, I found a bridge as the leader of the women’s employee resource group - being surrounded by hundreds of women and talking about issues and advancements that actually mattered made me feel alive again.
This helped me to be more comfortable in my day to day and truly fueled me for the following 4 years…
Then, when it came time to pass the torch to a new leader, the bottom dropped out as I was feeling dread again paired with workplace abuse.
It felt like my spirit guides were in a huddle or a scrum saying, “ok how are we going to get her out of here, it’s gotta be something pretty intense”.
I visited Salem, MA in October of the month I would make my grand exit but I wouldn’t know it yet. I was desperately trying to get out of the team that I had joined as I was a shell of myself, had become an alcoholic, and was barely hanging on.
I sat down with an intuitive in Salem and he said, ‘oh, you could be reading me’ - I said, ‘I have no idea what that means’, he replied, ‘you will’.
I nervously came back from Salem with that note in my mind, what would I possibly be doing if it wasn’t corporate? That’s horrifying and I don’t have the instruction book for that.
I had my one last straw moment and said, “today’s my last day” upon my return. I. was. done.
I had literally no idea where I was headed but I knew it was no longer environments where I didn’t feel safe, and that I was here to do more - queue Billie Eilish singing “What was I made for”.
I almost jumped right back into the corporate pool the following week until my dear husband asked me, “wait, did you leave Discover for a reason”? Oh right, yes, let me noodle that.
Privelegedly, I spent the next 2 months feeling into what I was meant to exist as in this world. I also knew that the energy I needed to feel back into is that of what I felt in the women’s ERG.
I began there, and through coaching and healing certifications, I “became” a coach and a healer, though I had been my entire life, I was just missing the exact frequency needed to be able to lean in.
Looking back on 35-40 year old Amy, I wish there would have been something like Magic School that existed, so that I could remember and begin pairing my intuition with fun tools like the elements and chakras, and the clair gifts to have an easier intro into my new existence - but - I also know that I was meant to stumble through a bit so that I could get here and create what others needed.
This is my why.
Magic School exists so that you can no longer feel torn between two worlds, but rather fully embrace your spiritual soul being with your human experience - that’s the magic.
Whether you’re a corporate witchy executive or simply wish to learn more and deepen your connection, Magic School is for you. Check it out and let me know if you have questions!
https://unlockthemagic.org/magic-school
Also, feel free to set up time with me to talk about it as it’s a big investment - when you’re ready, when you trust that you deserve it. https://calendly.com/amyp-8/30min